Holding tons of fear,
Pretending to smile now,
I know it’s a bad day tomorrow I’m scared a lot,
Our days are always calculated by past actions,
I always try to run away because of fear,
Even I faced more in the past,
The bigger the harder,
Still, I’m scared,
A small or big doesn’t matter,
Wanna run away and hide,
Unstable heart with its thoughts,
Drag me to step back, make me cry more,
Unable to accept the things of tomorrow,
Praying for today to not get completed fast,
Finding a way to escape,
Finding a reason to get an excuse,
Running away from the truth,
Hiding behind a fake world,
I know I need to face every problem,
And take the punishment for my every mistake,
But still, I’m breaking down to low,
Before knowing what happens tomorrow,
It’s so painful to be like this,
Okay!!
It’s a bad day tomorrow,
Then why I’m crying today,
I tried to focus on something else,
But if that thing makes me laugh,
Then I’m more scared that I’ll cry tomorrow,
I can’t handle anything today,
Wish I could run,
Escape,
Get excuse,
Disappear,
and try not to face it,
When time is ticking,
My heart beating faster,
This fear fill my eyes with tears,
Life looks so burden,
Fear is a cause of all my depression and pain,
Tensed confused,
Want to change,
But something dragging me back is me,
I have to change first,
What’s wrong if it’s a bad day,
I can even smile on that day,
I don’t want to run,
Yes, If I’m wrong I will get scolded tomorrow,
Yeah, a mistake will punish me,
Just to teach me not to do it again,
But why should I die with fear today?
I want to smile, laugh more and more,
Thinking about tomorrow I’m wasting today,
I’m losing the happy moments of today,
I don’t want to run away tomorrow.
-Prasanna Pala